- I think in the very near future I am going to delete this blog. Like my previous blog, it has served its purpose. I feel like it only shows one side of my life, the health crazed poor uni student. I am so much more than that and it just can not be conveyed through this medium. I do love this space however, it’s just associated with so much of my past. I originally created this blog to release feelings I felt that could never be validated and now that I have learnt to validate myself and be in control of who I am and where I want to take myself, I just don’t need it anymore.
- I am also almost 20 and this may sound ridiculous, but I don’t want to waste anymore of my time on here, not that speaking with so many wonderful on here is wasting time, but I want to other things with my time rather than write about what I could be doing. I don’t want to be stationary anymore. I don’t know how that will come across.
- There are so many things that I want for myself and I think I am selling myself short and trying to conform to an image that I wanted to be a long time ago. I am so much more evolved than that and confidant that I will make something of myself.
- I also don’t need this space to be healthy. I don’t need it to keep myself accountable. I can do that. I don’t need help. I don’t need people anonymously messaging me to add more of this or that or run less or lift more or whatever, I know what I am doing. I am intelligent, no I don’t know everything, which I am grateful for, but I know enough for right now.
- I also don’t need to see pictures of the Kardashians (although I am obsessed with them), or models draped in expensive clothing or men that I will never get close to and quotes that are so boxed in that there is no way of reinventing the wheel. Sometimes this place can be so cynical and so flat. I am a realist and this space is no longer for me.
- I have learned so much about myself this year and I am taking it all on board. I feel very blessed and very happy and strong and capable.
We’re stronger in the places that we’ve been broken.
I slept early. Ate breakfast early. Alone. Happy. Productive.
I went hiking and spotted an echidna and my best friend and I decided to turn back and go the other way. Scared of echidnas is so un Australian.
Anyway, I had a wonderful day. I thought I would be famished after 2 hours of hiking, although I am not hungry at all.
I have lost a kilo this week.
I am now the lightest I have been since I was 16. I am also the healthiest I’ve been ever.
So happy. Celebrating with cookies. So counterproductive.
10 RULES FOR BRILLIANT WOMEN
1 Make a pact. No one else is going to build the life you want for you. No one else will even be able to completely understand it. The most amazing souls will show up to cheer you on along the way, but this is your game. Make a pact to be in it with yourself for the long haul, as your own supportive friend at every step along the way.
2 Imagine it. What does a knock-the-ball-out-of-the-park life look like for you? What is the career that seems so incredible you think it’s almost criminal to have it? What is the dream you don’t allow yourself to even consider because it seems too unrealistic, frivolous, or insane? Start envisioning it. That’s the beginning of having it.
3 Gasp. Start doing things that make you gasp and get the adrenalin flowing. Ask yourself, “What’s the gasp-level action here?” Your fears and a tough inner critic will chatter in your head. That’s normal, and just fine. When you hear that repetitive, irrational, mean inner critic, name it for what it is, and remember, it’s just a fearful liar, trying to protect you from any real or seeming risks. Go for the gasps and learn how false your inner critic’s narrative really is, and how conquerable your fears.
4 Get a thick skin. If you take risks, sometimes you’ll get a standing ovation, and sometimes, people will throw tomatoes. Can you think of any leader or innovator whom you admire who doesn’t have enthusiastic fans and harsh critics? Get used to wins and losses, praise and pans, getting a call back and being ignored. Work on letting go of needing to be liked and needing to be universally known as “a nice person.”
5 Be an arrogant idiot. Of course I know you won’t, because you never could. But please, just be a little more of an arrogant idiot. You know those guys around the office who share their opinions without thinking, who rally everyone around their big, (often unformed) ideas? Be more like them. Even if just a bit. You can afford to move a few inches in that direction.
6 Question the voice that says “I’m not ready yet.” I know, I know. Because you are so brilliant and have such high standards, you see every way that you could be more qualified. You notice every part of your idea that is not perfected yet. While you are waiting to be ready, gathering more experience, sitting on your ideas, our friends referenced in rule five are being anointed industry visionaries, getting raises, and seeing their ideas come to life in the world. They are no more ready than you, and perhaps less. Jump in the sandbox now, and start playing full out. Find out just how ready you are.
7 Don’t wait for your Oscar. Don’t wait to be praised, anointed, or validated. Don’t wait for someone to give you permission to lead. Don’t wait for someone to invite you to share your voice. No one is going to discover you. (Well, actually, they will, but paradoxically, only after you’ve started boldly and consistently stepping into leadership, sharing your voice, and doing things that scare the hell out of you.)
8 Filter advice. Most brilliant women are humble and open to guidance. We want to gather feedback and advice. Fine, but recognize that some people won’t understand what you are up to (often because you are saying something new and ahead of your time). Some people will find you to be not their cup of tea. Some will feel threatened. Some people will want to do with your idea only what is interesting or helpful to them. So interpret feedback carefully. Test advice and evaluate the results, rather than following it wholesale.
9 Recover and restore. If you start doing the things that make you gasp, doing what you don’t quite feel ready to do, and being more of an arrogant idiot, you are going to be stretching out of our comfort zone–a lot. Regularly do things that feel safe, cozy, and restorative. Vent to friends when you need to. Acknowledge the steps you’ve taken. Watch your tank to see how much risk-taking juice you have available to you. When it’s running low, stop, recover and restore.
10 Let other women know they are brilliant. Let them know what kind of brilliance you see, and why it’s so special. Call them into greater leadership and action. Let them know that they are ready. Watch out for that subtle, probably unconscious thought, “because I had to struggle and suffer on my way up…they should have to too.” Watch out for thinking this will “take” too much time — when the truth is it always has huge, often unexpected returns.
I listened to a Jillian podcast today and Tara Sophia Mohr was a guest on the show and I found everything she was saying extremely profound.
I love criticism, I love being aware of where I am flawed and what I can work on and how I can strategise to make myself a better friend/employee/student/sister/daughter ect.
However listening to what Tara had to say about criticism and instead of looking at the criticism people give us as an attack, but understanding it as their expectation of us, what they want to see. So when your boss says you’re not getting through enough work during the day, that’s not her/him saying that you are slow and incompetent, it’s them simply saying that your role in this company is this and it is expected that you complete this amount of work. I just found that really interesting, because sometimes we do look at criticism as people lashing out their bad day on you or as people just being rude, but when you switch it round and see it as a positive you can really improve your performance and abilities.
I AM GOING TO BAKE COOKIES
YES COOKIES HEAL THE SOUL AND STRESS AND I AM GOING HIKING TOMORROW.
- It’s 11:04am I am at uni 56 minutes before class
- I have eaten all of my food. Including the celery I brought with me to eat on the train.
- I have a speech today and I am packing it in because I can’t help but feel that it is all wrong and everyone else’s will be 10 times better. There is nothing I can do now. I just have to read what I wrote in my planner (something about how fabulous I am)(yes, when I have to do things out of my comfort zone I write nice notes in my planner) and stop bitching out and BELIEVE AND ACHIEVE.
- So apparently the 1/11/14 is not Saturday after this Saturday it’s the Saturday after next Saturday, which mean Jillian Michaels is further away than I thought.
- I got a good parking spot today. Cheering.
- I can’t believe I have no food left.
- To stingy to buy things.